Six Month Mark

Well we are at the six month mark tomorrow since Jack left us. I keep thinking it will get easier but he is still constantly on our minds. We are having some issues with our new puppy and I think that makes it harder. We still miss Jack so much and get angry sometimes that it is so unfair that he had so little time with us.............

Four Months

Well its now been four months. Man it seems like so long ago in some ways. My daughter came in crying last night when she realized it was the four month mark. It still is so hard in so many ways. We miss him sooo much :-(

Three months..........

I can't believe its been 3 months since Jack passed. While the pain has mostly gotten better, we sure still miss him so much. We just went camping and that really brought things home for use because Jack was our camping buddy :-(. We did take our new puppy Bandit....we want him to like camping as much as Jack did! He had fun, but its definitely all new to him and he has to get used to that!!

I still miss him so much

Well its been over two months since Jack's passing. I still miss him very much and wonder why he had to be dealt this horrible disease. I so wish he was still here, with his wonderful spirit. I find some comfort in pictures and videos, but it can bring sadness too. It will be hard this summer as one of our favorite things to do with him was camping and that was one of the last things we did with him, just a short time before he died. We have a trip coming up and I'm sure he will be on our minds a lot. We will be able to introduce our new puppy to camping and I hope he loves it as much as Jack did. I continue to hope that this blog can help someone else thru what is a very difficult time.

Does Time Heal?

Sometimes I think it does, and other times I wonder. Its been about a month since we lost Jack and to this day I sometimes can't believe he is actually gone. I still miss him very much. There are still times where I almost forget that he is gone but it hits me soon enough that he is. We recently got a new puppy for my daughter's birthday, she has been wanting a puppy for as long as I can remember. "Bandit" will never replace Jack, no animal ever could, but he definitely keeps us busy, which of course helps. I'm tearing up as I write this and I wonder if the sadness will ever completely go away. I don't know....Jack was so very special.

Its been a week.....

And man what a hard week. In some ways it seems like just yesterday and in others it seems like he's been gone forever. Overall each day is a bit easier but the pain isn't gone. I was able to go away for a couple of days and I think that helped. Our home seems so empty without his wonderful "presence"....its just not the same :-(. I know he is gone but man sometimes it is hard to comprehend and get your mind around it. At times I feel so lost because for every day for almost 16 months I was fighting an evil enemy, cancer, and that enemy finally won and it just feels weird to not have that fight part of my daily life. It just seem so unfair that he is gone, yet I feel so blessed that he was part of our lives, it just wasn't long enough!!

The final blow......

It is with extreme sadness that I need to report that as of shortly before 2:00 today Jack is no longer with us in body, though he will continue to be here in spirit for those he touched. I was fortunate that even though it was a Sunday my vet agreed to come to my home and do it so that he could be somewhere he loved and felt safe. While extremely hard, I know he is at peace now. I was able to keep is pain under control but something else was going on and it got to the point where he was having difficulty breathing and got to the point today where he couldn't even lay down, he also stopped eating. Up until the end he was typical Jack with his loving eyes and a tail wag. He was even able to go on a short walk. On first glance you would never be able to tell anything was wrong. My mom came up to be with us and her initial reaction when he greeted her was oh he has time left. But it didn't take long to see beyond his wonderful greeting and big tail wagging. I've had many animals but Jack has touched my soul more than any other. It has been a long, hard 16 months full of ups and downs, but he has fought hard and stayed strong up to the end. He was able to say goodbye to his wonderful oncologist on Friday (though at the time we didn't know how near the end was) and today his sitters when I was gone also came for a last visit.

Attached is an awesome picture that we took this morning next to a stone we made in his honor which was placed by his favorite spot to lay.

Its time to start healing for my daughter and I, but it will be long road.